I’ll be busy moving to a new place over the next few days and hopefully my queue won’t run out. to make up for potential lack of posts, have a photo of my new nipple barbels peaking from my shirt. <3 goodnight.
wow you really turned out to be just a big waste of time, didn’t you.
wow, going through old posts of mine and seeing old photos of me, I realize how much effort I used to put into my appearance. I don’t know if this was because I worked a lot, and wanted to look good for some reason because appearance is so important at slaveway and ywca, or if I did it so I looked okay for school.
Honestly, now I hardly ever wear lots of makeup. if I do, I just keep wearing my makeup for like a week and dont redo it. its rare I take it off. and when I do, I don’t wear it for like. also another week. I never ever do my hair. I’ve had it in a sock bun for like two months now. if its not in a bun, I don’t even brush it I just let it go. I don’t shower daily. I can manage to because I don’t have greasy hair or face, and idk. I just don’t care much how I look. I’ll put on any shirt I grab first and wear these stupid Christmas pattern leggings everywhere.
I don’t know if thats like. Me just not caring what people think about how I look. or if I feel I no longer have anyone to impress. or if I’m literally too lazy to care about my appearance. I don’t know. I’m not all here right now and this was a dumb pointless post.
I am sitting on the couch
surrounded by all my drawings
my journal is nearby
I’m under my blanket and the smell of it is so comforting
I’m texting my best friend
I am relaxed and I feel safe.
I do not want to sleep yet.
What if everything’s just the way that it will be
Could it be that I am meant to cause you all this grief
My war ships are lying off the coast of your delicate heart
And my aim is steady and true as it’s been right from the start
its days like this where I just wish it ended a long time ago.
// I know I should be thankful.//
Hearing that my ultrasound results were normal, my blood and urine samples were normal, and my x-ray showed nothing wrong.
I should be fucking ecstatic.
(For those who don’t know)
The meaning behind your tattoo?
Its for my Mother and I. For years I worked and she didn’t. So I was the flower and she got her living, taking nectar from me. Now the tattoo has evolved and she now works and I don’t. All the same, she takes the burden off of me by being the bird and I nurse her to keep her going on. I guess it can mean a lot of different things. We’ve been through so many Downs and now we’re having ups. She’s finally showing she cares, so she brought me to get the tattoo (:
(Source: daphneemarie)
forever dreaming of a life I could live if I just pack up a bag and jump on one of the trains that pass my house everyday..
hi.
weirdly bad mood, go awaaaaaaaaaaaaay. I’m not in the mood for your shenanigans.
// Update. //
Unfortuantly I wont be finishing my 365 project I started on Jan 1st of this year. I found I’m too busy and forgetful to take a photo of myself everyday, upload it, and keep track of which photo is from which day. I work 2 jobs now, one fulltime, and its too difficult to keep up with. I fear I’ve messed up the dates on the photos as well, and its just a loss cause 250 days in. I know a lot of my followers wanted me to keep it up, but I just don’t have time. Sowwy 3:
